Tonight I talked to my sister (who is in high school) for forty minutes on the phone. We never talk on the phone so it was random -- we always talk on IM or in person. Plus, whenever I call home she is always like "here's mom" like she forgets how close we are when we are together. But she had high school problems and she had to get them off her chest (which is huge, btw). Hot and bothered.
She was having problems with her clique "JAKKAS". Girls will be girls. Two of the girls, K and S were talking shit on each other behind the others backs and blaming it on JAKA. K and S go to a separate school and they need to stick together but instead they turn on each other and are like "K is such a dork at our school" or vice versa. In front of each other they are friends though.
What I was thinking about is -- why are we always prone to go to people who are hurting us or who cause drama in our lives? Especially in our immature stages we gravitate towards people who treat us poorly or who seem "cool" to us as opposed to those people who are genuinely nice to us. I say we all just take a stand and treat people well who treat us well! Thats it, I've said my piece. And I will try to practice what I preach by not taking out all my law school frustrations on poor Douglas' ear (long distance relationships suck).
Back on the law school front, I've turned in my rough draft of my appellate brief. It sucked.
Today I got called out by Jen and Kate for not going out. EVER. Kate told me that I just like to get phone calls to be popular. Then when Jen called to tell me that the plans to go to Touch (noun, not verb) fell through she teased that finally they were staying home and ditching me.
For my defense -- and all people like me --
I like Jen and Kate and Eva. I like going out with Jen and Kate and Eva. And I don't just want phone calls to be popular. People who do want phone calls just to be popular make me mad. I genuinely want to go out when they (or whoever else I genuinely like that I've done this to -- a lot of people come to mind: Danielle, Joe, Jess, Larry...) invite me but I need pro-active friends. This is my downfall. I get so excited over the phone but then I start reading a book or browsing online and due to my "go-with-the-flow" personality I end up just doing whatever is easiest. So, if the plans are to meet somewhere -- unless someone takes me there or yells (nicely) at me that I better go -- most likely I will not show up. Not because I don't like people but because I don't like to/tend to have a bad habit not to get mobilized on my own. Plus, the whole walking places alone thing in Pittsburgh (after some guy flashed me and started masturbating) just doesn't fly with me. And, if I drive myself I will never drink (cause i won't even have one sip and drive...very very anti over here...all those high school presentations got to me). And who is fun without alcohol?
I guess I am just demanding (or babyish, selfish, take your pick). But if you will meet my demands (a few people come to mind: Jen M, Rachael P, Joe & his scary tactics, Molly, Jess & her frequent phone calls, Danielle, Larry...and thus far, Jen P, Kate, and Eva) I will surely be your friend. And, if you treat me well, I promise to treat you well.
Lastly, I do want to get better and I am going to make more of an effort to go out and be a social and less-demanding friend.
random side note: If I ever write a book my main character is going to be named Ida Petersburg b/c that is the exit on 23 that tells me I am super super close to Ann Arbor. Plus, no one is named Ida anymore.
other random side note: all day long I've wanted to talk to my mom so bad. where is she?
She was having problems with her clique "JAKKAS". Girls will be girls. Two of the girls, K and S were talking shit on each other behind the others backs and blaming it on JAKA. K and S go to a separate school and they need to stick together but instead they turn on each other and are like "K is such a dork at our school" or vice versa. In front of each other they are friends though.
What I was thinking about is -- why are we always prone to go to people who are hurting us or who cause drama in our lives? Especially in our immature stages we gravitate towards people who treat us poorly or who seem "cool" to us as opposed to those people who are genuinely nice to us. I say we all just take a stand and treat people well who treat us well! Thats it, I've said my piece. And I will try to practice what I preach by not taking out all my law school frustrations on poor Douglas' ear (long distance relationships suck).
Back on the law school front, I've turned in my rough draft of my appellate brief. It sucked.
Today I got called out by Jen and Kate for not going out. EVER. Kate told me that I just like to get phone calls to be popular. Then when Jen called to tell me that the plans to go to Touch (noun, not verb) fell through she teased that finally they were staying home and ditching me.
For my defense -- and all people like me --
I like Jen and Kate and Eva. I like going out with Jen and Kate and Eva. And I don't just want phone calls to be popular. People who do want phone calls just to be popular make me mad. I genuinely want to go out when they (or whoever else I genuinely like that I've done this to -- a lot of people come to mind: Danielle, Joe, Jess, Larry...) invite me but I need pro-active friends. This is my downfall. I get so excited over the phone but then I start reading a book or browsing online and due to my "go-with-the-flow" personality I end up just doing whatever is easiest. So, if the plans are to meet somewhere -- unless someone takes me there or yells (nicely) at me that I better go -- most likely I will not show up. Not because I don't like people but because I don't like to/tend to have a bad habit not to get mobilized on my own. Plus, the whole walking places alone thing in Pittsburgh (after some guy flashed me and started masturbating) just doesn't fly with me. And, if I drive myself I will never drink (cause i won't even have one sip and drive...very very anti over here...all those high school presentations got to me). And who is fun without alcohol?
I guess I am just demanding (or babyish, selfish, take your pick). But if you will meet my demands (a few people come to mind: Jen M, Rachael P, Joe & his scary tactics, Molly, Jess & her frequent phone calls, Danielle, Larry...and thus far, Jen P, Kate, and Eva) I will surely be your friend. And, if you treat me well, I promise to treat you well.
Lastly, I do want to get better and I am going to make more of an effort to go out and be a social and less-demanding friend.
random side note: If I ever write a book my main character is going to be named Ida Petersburg b/c that is the exit on 23 that tells me I am super super close to Ann Arbor. Plus, no one is named Ida anymore.
other random side note: all day long I've wanted to talk to my mom so bad. where is she?
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