As my blogs name is procrastination i felt that I shouldn't not post a blog today just because i have an appellate brief due tomorrow that I have hardly worked on. Rather appropriate.
My screaming inner voice
My thoughts today surrounded the humdrum philosophical thought that I never really can communicate fully with anyone. Secondly, that most of our communication is impossible since it is both awkward and sometimes unable to be put into words. That is, sometimes what I want to communicate boils down to more of a feeling that I just like to be around this or that person.
What I mean is -- say I throw out a topic, um..., abortion (since we read R v. W in Con law) -- you and I will never be able to touch upon all that we are thinking. Inevitably our conversation will lead down a limited number of paths.
Plus, even if it we hit upon everything that we think about abortion I may not be able to tell you how smart I think your ideas are, that you have broccoli in your teeth, or that you make me feel warm inside. This bothers me.
I guess it comes back to the fear that we all have that we don't want or can't open up quickly or be frank with others. If I randomly walked up to you (well, some of you others would halfway expect it) and said -- "I just really think you are a cool person and I like talking to you" but had no comment to back that up it would be weird. Other times, its not the weirdness that gets in the way but the lack of expression that there is for the overwhelming feeling that I get from, i don't know, talking with you, looking at you, watching you drink coffee, or chew on your pencil. Other times is the level of how comfortable or uncomfortable it is to bring what up what I am thinking at that specific moment.
this is going in circles and again I am not communicating my thoughts completely or directly...which is exactly my frustration.
My screaming inner voice
My thoughts today surrounded the humdrum philosophical thought that I never really can communicate fully with anyone. Secondly, that most of our communication is impossible since it is both awkward and sometimes unable to be put into words. That is, sometimes what I want to communicate boils down to more of a feeling that I just like to be around this or that person.
What I mean is -- say I throw out a topic, um..., abortion (since we read R v. W in Con law) -- you and I will never be able to touch upon all that we are thinking. Inevitably our conversation will lead down a limited number of paths.
Plus, even if it we hit upon everything that we think about abortion I may not be able to tell you how smart I think your ideas are, that you have broccoli in your teeth, or that you make me feel warm inside. This bothers me.
I guess it comes back to the fear that we all have that we don't want or can't open up quickly or be frank with others. If I randomly walked up to you (well, some of you others would halfway expect it) and said -- "I just really think you are a cool person and I like talking to you" but had no comment to back that up it would be weird. Other times, its not the weirdness that gets in the way but the lack of expression that there is for the overwhelming feeling that I get from, i don't know, talking with you, looking at you, watching you drink coffee, or chew on your pencil. Other times is the level of how comfortable or uncomfortable it is to bring what up what I am thinking at that specific moment.
this is going in circles and again I am not communicating my thoughts completely or directly...which is exactly my frustration.
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